Monday September 7 Leah had her first day at school today - well her first afternoon I should say, she is part time (1pm-3.30pm) until half term.

She was so excited, this morning I took her for a milkshake for a treat and we made the most of Megs being at nursery by playing games & reading stories before she went.

She skipped along to school looking so sweet & gorgeous in her uniform, we were first there so she was first in. She sat straight down & started colouring, she gave me a big kiss & smile and I left her to it.

I managed not to cry but it was a very strange feeling, leaving her with people I barely know. I no longer have (almost) total control over what influences she's exposed to & who she spends time with.

It is such a big step, I know Kev & I are still her main influences but it's hard not to worry about who she'll make friends with.

It is now I have to trust that the values we've brought her up with shine through & she makes sensible choices as a result.

Anyway - she came out of school beaming & full of what she'd been up to, none of the usual "Can't remember" or "Nothing" responses I usually get when I ask what she did at nursery.

She was very tearful & emotional when we got home, she cried for a good half hour for no real reason.

I guess the day had just been totally overwhelming for her.

I fell asleep on the sofa at 6pm until 7.30pm so I guess it was pretty overwhelming for me too!

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