I RECEIVED a lovely call from Helen Johnstone CR press officer today to apologise for the call - Paula had spoken to her, Paula has also emailed a story!!!

I'm glad it has been brought the the right people's attention because it shouldn't be allowed to happen again but I don't want this to damage the fundraising efforts of CR - maybe I'm a bit too full of my own importance & no one else is really bothered????

Hopefully the story will stop it happening to anyone else but also bring a bit more focus to CR - after all any publicity can be turned into good publicity.

I'm on antibiotics again - it is so frustrating & alien to have to take ABs for the slightest thing - I'm also having my bloods done at the hospital tomorrow to make sure it is nothing else - everything is such a worry.

Every ache or twinge scares me, then when you read news like Patrick Swayze dying - that knocked me for six - I had taken alot of strength from how well he was doing & how he appeared to be 'winning', I guess he did better than ever imagined when he was first diagnosed - but I guess I thought he would just fight on forever.

It makes my situation more real again - I have already done better than first expected - how much longer will I manage to keep it going?????

All just so scary...

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