As Mel & I walked along Westover Road laughing about the film we'd just seen I heard the two young lads stood in a doorway laughing, I felt the tears prick my eyes as I heard one say "The one with the skin head is definitely a lesbian".

I felt shaken, and so angry. How dare he comment on me like that. Mel hadn't heard and when I told her she wanted to go back & give him a mouthful, I stopped her, why spoil his night too, he is happy in his ignorance & to tell him the reason for my hairstyle would (hopefully) be upsetting for him.

I felt shocked by my reaction, I have actually enjoyed the freedom of having no hair and usually other people's opinions (especially immature, uneducated opinions) wouldn't have bothered me, at the end of the day it would have been none of his business and not matter at all if he were right - it was the fact that he was wrong and that he felt entitled to comment.

The irony of the situation is that I have decided to try and grow my hair a bit and it's actually longer now than it's been since I lost it.

It's at that really annoying stage now - I desperately want to get the clippers out and shave it all off but I'm determined not to and am excited to hear that Toni & Guy hairdressers have teamed up with Macmillan and are offering people who have lost their hair due to cancer treatment a free consultation and subsidised hair cuts & treatments.

I'm going to make an appointment soon! And two fingers up to that stupid lad in Bournemouth!

When I saw my Dr for pre-chemo last week he suggested I try reducing my daily morphine dose, he felt that as the cancer in my body has been reduced by the chemo then my need for pain relief should be reduced.

Sadly that has not been the case, my shoulder has been really aching and the pain in my hip has returned. When I went in for my blood test yesterday I told the Dr & he said to go back to my original dose as it clearly suited my needs better.

I just wish we'd left alone as I now feel a bit like I've failed, I don't want to be on so many tablets and common sense would say that if I've got less cancer then I should have less pain.

My Macmillan nurse said that even when cancer goes away often the damage it's done remains - my fractured shoulder will never heal for example, so I guess that's why I need such high doses of pain relief, but it would have been nice to have been able to reduce the dose, I worry that people (Drs) will think I'm being a wimp!!!! How crazy is that?

Today is the day in my chemo cycle that has previously been the worst day, when I have felt totally wretched, this time round things have been so much better.

I did sleep in a bit this morning and feel a little on edge, but nothing like last time. Hopefully this means I'm getting used to the treatment and it will be like this from now on. What a happy thought...