Leah lost her first tooth yesterday, she was so excited bless her. My baby is really growing up! Megan keeps pulling her teeth wanting to know when hers will be wobbly!!!

I’m feeling a bit down lately, I think the chemo is taking its toll on my body. I’ve got used to the side effects but the other stuff, the dry mouth which makes it so hard to swallow anything, the little nicks on my hands, feet & even face, the peeling skin in my mouth and the constant nausea is so depressing and it’s so frustrating that I’m feeling like this – I really don’t want to be.

I will talk to Dr George when I go for pre-chemo next week, I don’t want to be taking more medication but I want to be able to enjoy myself & feel well. I can’t believe that there have been times when I’ve just wanted this to be over.

I can’t believe there were time when I thought it would be best if I weren’t here. I’m never going to give up, being here has got to be best for everyone, it may be prolonging the agony but it is also giving us the opportunity for so many more special times.

I will fight to the bitter end and I will make the memories happy for Kev and the girls.