Sorry it's been so long since I updated my blog, since New Year life has been more than hectic - all in a good way!

It's been two years since I started on this drug trial, it's been an emotional roller coaster since those early days when I was suffering panic attacks, paranoia and mood swings. Things are good now, apart from the 4-5 days immediately after treatment when I'm good for nothing, you wouldn't know there was anything wrong with me.

Since my diagnosis in 2008 I have noticed a definite shift in thinking about cancer. These days more and more people are 'living with cancer' it is no longer the automatic death sentence it used to be.

It is hard to adjust to the situation and at times I still feel guilty that I no longer work, that I still take up so much of my Mum's time and emotions and that our family life has changed forever, BUT life is generally good.

It's funny to consider cancer in a positive way but I have experienced things since my diagnosis that I never would have otherwise. The holidays we've been on, the time I've spent with my children, the people I've been privileged to meet and get to know, the luxury of not having to go out to work, none of that would have been possible without my cancer status.

I think what I'm trying to say is that the old saying 'Every cloud has a silver lining' is actually true, or that maybe its possible to find positives in even the worst of situations. I really hope that there are others out there who are able to find their silver linings and that their good days make up in some way for the bad ones.